Thursday, 26 May 2011

The girl Who Leapt Through Time


Assalamualaikum, salam sejahtera.
As always, I’m not an up-to-date person like others “-_-, but I’ll share about one of my favorite movie/film. This film is anime, yeayy! Called, the girl who leapt through time. I have a bunch of my favorite film/movie but since I’m not a hardworking person to begin with, so I don’t have any list “Laila’s top ten favorite movie” I just don’t. if I remember next time, I’ll do it later. :P

OK, this film was on 2006.
It’s about a girl who can leapt through time - as clear as the title said. Leapt through time means you can travel and choose to be in any time you want, to be in yesterday for an example. The theory of this film was, the time can’t be reversed, so we can only travel through the time. This girl, Makoto, accidentally has this power and she uses it to fix her grades at school, avoid being late and so on. So you can read the information/synopsis about this movie HERE (Wikipedia).

What I like about this character is, she is a little bit me, and a little bit what I want to be.
She’s not that kawaiii girl like others, a little bit boyish, very carefree, having problem about being late, very clumsy etc. and what I want to be like her is, she has two bestfriends which are boys, and fall in love with one of them. This is not exactly what I wanted, but the feeling to fall in love with your bestfriend is cute.  :P their friendship is what I envy most.

I always thought that this movie is wonderful, it always makes me cry.
It also has nice a graphic, (jepun kan, ape nak heran), the way they picture summer, their school, it’s very nostalgic to me. And, and.. their soundtracks are beautiful, very beautiful. :D

If you’re interested with this movie and their soundtracks, don’t hesitate to ask a copy from me because I have(download) it all :D :D
I’ll leave you some lyrics translations and videos.

 As you ran around the baseball field,
You seemed freer than the clouds in the sky,
Even your square letters in my notebook,
Seemed like a light that lit everything,

I didn't understand the emotion of love,
This moment in time that will never return,
Taught me the true meaning of love,

I'm going to burn into my heart,
The memories of days I spent with you,
So I never have to remember them,
Even if I someday fall in love with someone else,
You will always be special and precious,
And this season will come around again,

When we spoke for the first time after school,
I was looking for a smile that no one else knew,
Hearing your voice from a distance,
For some reason my heart began to ache,

I was afraid of things changing,
I felt that we would always be friends,
And thought nothing would ever end,

The fact that I met you in the vastness of time,
Has made me stronger than anything else,
Running towards tomorrow in a daze,
And I just so happen to get there,
And you will always be special and precious,
And this season will come once more,

That summer you promised me,
That you'd never forget,
Time has passed,
And only now my tears begin to flow,

I'm going to burn into my heart,
The memories of days I spent with you,
So I never have to remember them,
Even if I someday fall in love with someone else,
You will always be special and precious,
And this season will come around again.

Kawaranai Mono
We joked around on our way home.
I made you angry for no reason.
I guess I just wanted to see your different sides.

Your large eyes, your trembling voice,
Even now they are close by my heart.
In the crowd of strangers, I ran after you.

I was searching for the things that never change.
I will never forget how you were on that day.
These feelings I have transcend time.
I just want to meet you now.

These feelings upon which the street lights shine,
I could never manage to let you have them.
The nights brought us further away from each other.

The lie you told through your opaque heart,
Even now it continues to resonate within me.
Uncertain of our future, you and I fell in love.

I was searching for the things that never change.
The unfamiliar place we found on that day,
If the two of us can go there together again,
I will be reborn as many times as it takes.

As I embrace the things that have no shape,
I fail to hear the breaking sound.
On the same path that we walked together,
Even now the light continues to shine.

I was searching for the things that never change.
I will never forget how you were on that day.
These feelings I have transcend time.
I just want to meet you now.

Movie Trailer

So, that's it, Hopefully you find it beautiful too.
If you're happen to know any beautiful anime film like this, please share it.

I also fancies Studio Ghibli collections, my sister bought the collection. 
(Most anime from Studio Ghibli are full of imaginations and fantasies)

Spirited Away and My neighbor Totoro are the films from Studio Ghibli,
dont forget to Google for more info.

Alright, senyum lebar sampai ke telinga, with lots of Lurve,


Tuesday, 24 May 2011

Baby Baby Oooo!!

Assalamualaikum, salam sejahtera.
There are many things that I wish to share tapi tiada berkesempatan.
My best friend, Ruwaihah selamat melahirkan anak lelaki sulung beliau on last March, but I only got the chance to visit on April. So this story is very very ketinggalan zaman.

Ruwaihah is our first friend who has a baby, and this cute baby boy name is Fyraz. It is very exciting for us too, to be aunty. I’ve been asking the mother (Ruwaihah) a lot of questions. “Was it hurt?” , “Did you cry?” , “What are you doing at the time when you know that you’re going to errr bersalinkan the baby?”.
I have nephews, but it didn’t occur to me ask things like that to my sister.  It’s more fun asking your friend.  :P

Fyraz is a very good boy, he didn’t cry when we laugh out loud, I mean very loud.
And he fall asleep easily. Good boy :)
So, here’s a few funny pictures of us. 

 sleeping macho (because he's a boy!)

 Upacara penyampaian hadiah :P

 Me holding Fyraz (I look weird, right? "-_-)

 Ouh this boy got his first kiss already :P

 That's us! Right at the top is the mother (Ruwaihah)
And left at the top is Uncle Muap, haha (he's a friend of ours since high school too)

And, me! stealing Fyraz's cute pillow!
lets pretend we're bunny rabbits..  :P

So, that's it for now, and there's a lot more to come!
Remember, senyum lebar sampai ke telinga.
I was having a not-so-good-day today, but hey, it's OK!
With lots of Lurve,


Tuesday, 17 May 2011

Ayahanda menunaikan Umrah!

Assalamualaikum, salam sejahtera.

Last Saturday 14th May 2011,
keberangkatan ayahanda bersama kekanda, with my stepmother and my step aunt (stepmom's sister) and my stepgrandmother (stepmom's mom). All this 'pangkat' really confusing.
Disebabkan tidak sempat pulang ke kampung halaman, I've decided to babaiii babaiii kat KLIA jer lahh..
Selamat menunaikan ibadah Umrah kepada mereka! I've received a phone call from Mecca on Sunday and I'm glad they're fine. Mari doakan semoga mereka selamat semuanya.

My sister asked me : "ada nak pesan doa ape2 ke kat sane?"
My answer : "doa cepat kaya lahh, hahahaha!"
ok and then my sister said "jd kaya bkn blh tolong masuk syurga pon, haha"
I always know they'll pray good things for me, even when they're not at Mecca. so I guess why not mintak cepat kaya. hahah (maybe permudahkan rezeki lah ye tak, tak kaya pon takpe janji cukup untuk keperluan :D)

So, here's a few pictures! :)
(takde gambar tengah nak masuk pon, sbb balik awal ade org nak kerja "-_-)

this is my ayahanda tengah ambil passport.

meneliti passport masing masing

bergambar beramai ramai

Me and Ayahanda :)

So, that's it for now
Senyum lebar sampai ke telinga.
p/s you can ignore my previous entry because its stoopeed. :P
with lots of Lurve,


Sunday, 15 May 2011

Ouh What?!

Every time i bought a clothes or whatever, 
and it has a nice plastic bag, i will keep the plastic bag,
and I've been doing it since high school, 
imagine how many i have now. "-_-

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

show your body some serious love!

Assalamualaikum, salam sejahtera.

Today, I’ve read an article in CLEO magazine (which is my must-buy-every-month thing). And if you also bought it let see page 188 (May 2011 issue of course) and read it together.

33 Ways to show your body some SERIOUS LOVE. <3 <3
And if you’re lucky, it’ll love you back!!
There are few things that I want to seriously try to love, so this is the list!

1.       Get involved
Replace TV time with bike riding, playing an instrument.

                My own term :
                Replace internet time with cooking :)
                Maybe I could take a cooking class, or handcrafts class (jika mampu bayar yuran :p)
                Or maybe do some volunteering works. Ahaaa~

2.       Buy experiences instead of stuff
Study shows “We don’t tend to get bored of happy memories like we do with material objects”

My own term :
Spend money for experience and not materials, right.
I never went to SPA or any facial treatment, and I’ve bought a few vouchers so I really looking forward to get it done. I hope this will be a worth spend experience.

3.       Eat lots of wholegrain
Oat, brown rice, buckwheat, rye, bulgur, millet, quinoa and wholewheat flour.
(Does anyone can seriously explain what the heck is rye, bulgur, quinoa is?)

My own term :
Nasi putih beras jasmine is acceptable or not? OK, I’ll eat more cornflakes :D

4.       Stay close with friends and family
Studies found that people with strong relationships have better immune systems and live longer than those who are socially isolated. :D

My own term :
This is serious guys. But since my family live in other state, so when I come home, I really must need to spend quality time with them (maybe I should propose big dinner at fancy restaurant, my sister paying of course.. hurmm.. I wonder what pakcik enzai will react with my suggestion, haha)
And well my beloved friends, we worked so hard already right? So, why not we take time to chillax, hang out together pulak. I have two pending chillax sessions actually. The vacation trip with my KLMU friends, and ice room chillax session with my UniKL friends. And recently, bachelor party for my khasyazalahumiah gang. They better be masyukkkk by now ok  :P

5.       Pee after sex
Well, the friction of shag can cause bacteria to enter the uretha and by peeing it will flush the bacteria out. Hurmm
And so, I will skip my own term on this. J

6.       Don’t brush straight after eating
Wait a minimum 20 minutes. Tooth enamel is softer after acid exposure and you don’t want to scrub it off.

My own term :
It’s hard enough to brush my teeth 3 times a day. So this would be no problem.
But I will put more effort to keep my teeth clean :P

7.       Eat slowly
The body is pretty unimpressed by speed eating, as it can’t secrete hormones that make you full fast enough, resulting in overeating and weight gain.
The solution? Chew, drink, talk, relax. You’ll enjoy the food, and the moment more :D

My own term :
I am a slow eater ! :P
But sometimes when I’m in rush, I tend to eat faster. And the consequence is, I will hiccup and hiccup and finally, stomach ache. I’ll learn to organize my time better ya.
And ouh, I’ve read somewhere that, if you skip your breakfast, you will tend to get fat unlike when you have breakfast. I don’t know how it happens because I don’t understand biology that much. “-_-

8.       Leave work on time!
Workaholics have a higher incidence of anxiety, fatigue, headaches, digestive issues and relationship breakdowns than people who have a job and life.

My own term :
This is what I’ve been trying to say to all the boss in the world! Hahah! :D
I love leave work on time or maybe earlier, that’s mean I’m having a healthier and happier life right  :P

9.       Wear sunscreen
According to National Skin Centre website, skin cancer is the 7th most common skin cancer in Singapore and the number is climbing.
So pop on a hat, shirt and SPF 30+ sunscreen before you head out.

My own term :
I will do this for sure! You know, cuaca sekarang sgt tidak menentu. Kejap kejap panas sangat, kejap kejap hujan lebat. So, take a good care of yourself, drink plenty of air masak! As for the skin, I just recently learned what the meaning of SPF number this, and number that. The bigger the number is, the more it protects your skin from sunscreen. I’m sorry if I’m a little bit slow with the whole beauty products/skin care things. Btw, it’s lucky that my workplace is teduh, ada air cond, for those yang kerja jual nasi ker, yang kerja bengkel kereta ker. Haaaa.. ( please see number 12 later)

10.   Know that he loves you <3
When you find a good man, relax and be secure in the relationship. Research shows that doubting our partners can double the risk of heart problems. It can literally break your heart.

My own term :
Hurmm, I’ve been facing a problem of insecurities in my life. I tend to be a mother to my boyfriend, which in previous article in this CLEO May issue says:
 “Often women slip into habit of this behavior because they lack their own self-esteem; they have no confidence in their ability to maintain a relationship because they think they are not compelling or attractive enough. To compensate for what they feel they are lacking, they go overboard and are too nice and too giving, fearing that if they set boundaries, the guy they are with might walk away”.

I have this problem and it’s like I can’t trust my nyett to get his things done. I will be asking/nagging 24 hours. I have a problem to get involve in every single thing he do and just like a mother I tend to give all the best for him. And that is not a good thing! So maybe, I’ll learn to start trust in him. I’ll try to love him like he always loves me. Accepting the goods and the bad in our partner. Bak kata Bruno Mars, Just the way you are!
(I must stop nagging, I must stop nagging, I must stop nagging) cheers!

11.   Get a fruit bowl
Fill it with fresh produce and place it on the table. “if you put nice apples out in plain sight, people will eat them” :)

My own term :
Don’t we just love the fresh fruits in a big bowl?
It’s a beautiful sight, really. It can create harmony and soothes in your place.
But to maintain and eat the fruits while it still fresh, is another different story. But first, fresh fruits don’t come in cheap price. And for the place like mine which people are rarely home is another problem. Who will eat the fruit when there are no people at home.
So, my solution is, makan buah potong! Or, have a fruit juice! (originally fruit juice and not just  cordial) :D

12.   Be thankful!
 Research shows that gratitude plays a big part in overall happiness, so keep a thankfulness diary. Before you go to bed at night, write down one big or small thing you’re grateful for. Scribble down anything. From “friends who make me smile” to “stinky French cheese”, qualifies.

My own term :
What a nice thing to do, right? I couldn’t agree more that this is the best thing to do to have a happy life! Be thankful, and grateful! The important way to show our thanks is PRAY, five times a day! And later, we can have that thankfulness diary. I will start writing down what I’m thankful today is, I’m thankful because I’m working in the nice office, yang teduh lg tak panas. :D and also, I’m thankful to have a sometimes-wonderful and sometimes-annoying boyfriend :P
I’ll consider I’m lucky to still have a 5-year boyfriend after all :)

13.   Use condoms
Just for the info, if you’re on the pill, you may have gotten a bit lazy with your sexual health.
Always use condoms with untested partner. I have nothing to say on my term. So, skip!

14.   Blink more
Human naturally blink five to six times a minute, but when you stare at electronic screens, that rate goes down, causing dry, red eyes. Take two minute screen break every half hour. Close your eyes to lubricate them, then stretch your eye muscles by looking at somewhere in the distance.

My own term :
Yup! The fact is so true! Our eyes need a rest! Sometimes a dark circle appears around my eyes when I use a laptop for too long. “-_-
So the solution is, rajin rajin la letak timun kat mata :P and then blink more! Or maybe wink! ;)

15.   Wear flats if you can
Despite looking hot, heels raise hell with your back, hips, knees, ankles and feet.

My own term :
I love slippers! Selipar jepun especially. Very easy!
But sometimes kena la melawa lawa jugak kan. So yes to heels (but I wear wedges actually :P) but not too often :) slipper make your day!

16.   Eat veggies
You’ve heard it a million times but it bears repeating. A diet rich in fruit and vegetables can lower the risk of developing heart disease, stroke and certain types of cancer by up to 30 percent.

My own term:
Ahaa! If you’re a very close person to me, you will know that I don’t eat veggies. If we go eat somewhere, my order would be like this; “nasi goreng tanak sayur, bihun sup tanak sayur….” I refuse to eat veggies. I called it tumbuhan hijau, I refuse to eat anything green. But however, I start to learn to eat veggies now, I even used to consider being a vegetarian but it costs too much actually. Anyway wish me luck with my learn-to-eat-veggies process! For a start, I have cucumber in my fridge: P

17.   Watch a comedy show and laugh
Laughter releases feel-good hormones that reduce stress and shut down negative self-talk. It’s also good for working the tummy muscles – which is a lot more fun than doing exhausting sit ups.

My own term :
Alright! I think watching 711 it’s enough. It has many comedy show/drama. I love watching “how I met your mother” and “glee”. If it wasn’t enough, we can change to 132! And Maharaja Lawak every Friday of course! <3

18.   Find a peaceful place to escape
The constant noise of traffic and people can wear you down. find a quiet place nearby, such as museum, garden or library and make it your sanctuary when the world gets overwhelming.

My own term :
Speaking of library, I used to make kinokuniya as my library. I spent hours there to read books. But now I think I’m not that hard working anymore to spend my energy taking train and be there. But I really love the idea of escaping. Me and my nyett used to talk about hiking. We’re planning to go hiking sometimes, maybe in June (paling cepat la tu). And we’re not talking about Broga hill. Ini rancangan mendaki gunung ye rakan2. Still in KL area. So if any of you would like to join, please inform so we can have further plan on this :) We need to get fit first ok people!

19.   Start a garden
Getting involved in the planting and tending flowers is much better for you than slouching on the couch. Not to mention the satisfaction you’ll get from presenting pretty bouquets to friends.

My own term :
When we live in a place “rumah atas angin”, it means rumah bertingkat. You can’t find any hurmmm tanah laa.. unless you are very rich, you can have a balcony full of trees and even a fountain. Well. I have two vases of plants that I don’t know what its name was. So I think that’s a good start :) (keep positive people, and hope the plant won’t die too soon :P )

20.   Declutter your room and home
Clean, ordered rooms are easier to chill out in. unpaid bills and dirty laundry can be distracting, so invest in some storage solutions to make your “studenty” house look more grown up.

My own term :
OK! OK! I will clean up my room and my place. I have to get rid my laziness as soon as possible. I will organize my things better. I will throw out my “barang barang merepek”. I have a habit to keep things and called it sentimental value. Most of the barang barang merepek are toys, happy meal toys, tickets, any free gifts/pamphlets.. I collect too many things “-_- I promise to get rid it all before I get married which is still unknown. Hahah!

21.   Move your body
Psychologists believe that a great way to banish bad moods is to get active, whether it’s a big gym session or just a brisk walk. The rewards? Improved focus and reduced tension.

My own term :
I’m really not good at this. But I’ll try. Start with push-ups every day. And walk more (around shopping complex :P ) and do some sports, badminton for example. Haha. All of these stuffs are hard for me, but I’ll try. I promise I’ll try!  :)

22.   Be a singletasker
Multitasking is seriously overrated, and usually results in several jobs done poorly instead of one task performed well. In fact, the brainiacs at Hewlett-Packard recently found the average worker’s IQ drops 10 points when they’re doing more than one thing.

My own term :
I’m not a serious multitasker to begin with. I might do it when I was still studying. And now I only do it when I cook while watching TV. :P So if any of you are multitasker, start being a singletasker instead :)

23.   Wake up sunny
Battling to get up in the morning? Try sleeping with the curtains open so natural light can filter through your room from dawn onwards. The sunshine will help reset your body clock, making it easier to start the day.

My own term :
Sleep with the curtains open? That’s too scary for me. “-_-
To have an annoying alarm is enough, and I can open the curtains after I wake up.
But maybe you guys who are not penakut like me can try this. Wake up with a sunny breeze upon your face~ that’s too wonderful and a great kick start for your day! :D

24.   Cuddle up
Cortisol is a nasty hormone that floods your body when you’re stressed, increasing blood pressure and slowing your metabolism. Hugs drop cortisol levels. True story. And it doesn’t matter whether you’re snugging with your boyfriend or a friend’s pet pooch.

My own term :
Hugs can make you happy. So why not hugs your love one. Maybe your family or your best friends. And I hug Chot every day! Just maybe his bulu will tickle my nose.  :P
But don’t you go hugs every stranger you meet!  :)

25.   Go sugar free
Refined sugar causes your energy and insulin levels to yoyo, giving you a blood sugar level high followed by a blood sugar crash.
If you need the boost during the day, eat complex carbs ; rye bread and potatoes. They’re digested more slowly and provide a sustained energy release over several hours.

My own term :
“Kurangkan gula dalam makanan, manis dalam senyuman”, did I mentioned it right? :P
When order a drink, put this behind you sentence “….kurang manis satu!” hehe.. this is not hard for me because I like drinking plain water. If I not mistaken we should drink at least 1 litre of plain water every day. :)

26.   Find a sport you love
Enjoyable physical activities don’t feel like work, so we’re more likely to have a go at them. Even inventing new dance move, being distracted by fun exercises is a whole lot easier.

My own term :
As I said before I’ll try to play badminton often. I hope I have time to do the whole exercise things. I’m not really good at sports. The only thing I know is badminton. Netball, fail! Volley ball, fail! What else? That’s the only common sports at school rite? Hurmm. But one thing sure, I’m good at creating new dance move! :P

27.   Sing in the shower
Music, like food and sex, activates parts of the brain associated with feel-good sensations, and it calms us down. according to a study, people who listened to their favorite songs after surgery had lower heart rates, indicating that they were more relaxed, despite being in a stressful situation.

My own term :
When I think of this, I remember a song from Various Artists, old song, around 90’s, Nsync, BSB involved, and many more actually. The song goes like this : ‘let the music heal your soul, let the music take control, let the music gives you the power to move any mountain’ ahaa! Can you remember it now? Let me put the link to the video ok? click here! So, let sing together, in a shower or when you feel down, it can be a way to express your feeling, when you’re angry or sad. It can helps releases tension. But don’t overdo it :D

28.   Have a glass of red wine
Red wine contains the antioxidant resveratrol, which is found in grapes. Antioxidants mop up toxins in your body, and this particular one helps keep your arteries clean and pumping well. However, if you go over two standard drinks a day, you could be facing heart, liver, kidney and brain damage. Go easy.
Well, I’m gonna skip the red wine, and let’s have a real fruit juice instead! <3

29.   Sit up straight
A healthy spine position is important, especially given that most headaches originate in your neck, usually as a result of hunching over computer screen. A psychotherapist from says that your eyes should be in the middle of the screen, with elbows, knees and hips at 90 degrees.

My own term :
I always have this problem. Feel pain at the back and neck. It leads to headaches. So the solution is keep elbows, knees and hips 90 degrees! Remind myself not to be too bongkok laaa.. haiyaaa.. I will become hunchback if I’m not careful.

30.   Turn your music down
Since speakers were invented, humans have been getting closer and closer to them. Now we have the technology to actually insert them into our ears via headphones/earphones, and the delicate hair cells in our outer ears are not happy, in fact, they might be going on permanent strike, hearing damage is reversible.

My own term :
I don’t usually always listen to a very loud music. Sometimes is OK. Honestly, I don’t like being in a friend’s car which turn on the song too loud, especially heavy metal’s song. Dah la lagu tu mmg menjerit ditambah lg instrument melampau nye, dikuatkan pula volume nye. We’re talking boys cars now. At the moment I step in, I’ll get headaches “-_-
Biasa kan kite tengok, ade kereta lalu pasang lagu gile kuat (bunyi nye dung dang dung dang!), biase nye lagu disko nih. I wonder how they’ll know if an ambulance needs to go through.
So, keep it low people :D

31.   Throw a party
Social networking has been great to catch up with long-lost friends but study says that we need to remember to take it offline once in a while. “face to face communication produces the hormone oxytocin, which is thought to be the link between social contact and healthy hearts.

My own term :
Throw a party is chillax sessions and makan makan sessions. Will not involve any volume up music. So the party is still healthy :)
And as I said before, I have three pending chillax sessions. I don’t understand why it’s so hard to be together and just having fun. Maybe spend an hour or two. Hurmm.. I’ll try harder after this to keep us together, and plus, it’s good for our health too. :P

32.   See the funny side of life
Humour is a coping mechanism that helps us deal with a less than perfect world. So next time you’re getting all flustered because the person in front of you is walking too slowly, imagine  what the scene must look like to an amused bystander.

My own term :
How on earth should I see the funny side life? Life is not a play thing , right? Haha!
Well ok, I’ll try to find the funny side of it. Maybe I can find it when Chot is messing up the house. I will try to see it as funny. Hehe :P I’ll try..

33.   Stop comparing yourself to others.
Constantly sizing your life up against other people’s is a sure path  to Crazytown. There will always be someone ‘better’ than you and there will always be someone ‘worse’ than you. By accepting and making peace with person you are, you’ll shut out a lot of negative self talk and open up your life to good times.

My own term :
Ok this is the most hard. But I promise I’ll try for my own good.
I have to constantly remember, no one is perfect. Semua orang ada kelemahan dan kekurangan. We are equal! They maybe rich, but they might not pretty. They might be pretty, but they might not happy. So fair and square! Everyone has their own specialties. We just not have find it yet :)
Be thankful, again! There’s no limit for being thankful.

Oh, this is the most longest entry ever!
And if you read this till the end, I would like to say thank you very much.
I have nothing to give you back, I’m just happy enough if I know I can share things with you.
Thank you for reading.
Senyum lebar sampai ke telinga.
With lots of Lurve,


Monday, 9 May 2011

I'm lost without you :(

Assalamualaikum, salam sejahtera  :)

Yesterday was Mother’s Day. As most of you know, my mom passed away 6 years ago. But I have a stepmom now, so, Happy mother’s day mak ngah! My stepmom is a very nice person. She never scolds or even nags at me (sangat bertentangan dgn cerita2 drama ok). She is my dad’s cousin actually so we know her since little. I never doubted or protested when my dad told me he want to marry her. It’s good for him actually to have someone accompany him at home. After my mom died, there’s only me and my dad at home. And suddenly I learned to cook, calling my sister every afternoon asking her how to make this and that. Well of course I’m not a good cook. I always know that he missed my mom’s cook.  And later he told me that I don’t need to cook, “kite makan kat luar jelah”. It’s very hard actually to be in that situation. Together we’re missing the same person.

My kelas tambahan fizik teacher used to say; “kalau ade sesuatu bende yg sedih terjadi, pastu lama2 kita dah tak sedih da, sebab ape? Sebab kita dianugerahkan lupa. “ even lupa pon ade hikmahnye.
As I grow older and leave home, and as time passed by, I forgot the sad thing. I learn to live a life without a mother. Ramai orang akan anggap, kalau perkara tu dah lama berlaku, kita dah takkan rasa sedih daa. But eventually it creates new feeling which is rindu.

No matter how hard I try to forget, the truth still hurts me. No matter how hard I try hide the pain, it still haunts me down. I try to be strong but finally I fail. It kinda hurt me yesterday when everyone else is like wishing mother’s day everywhere. And to make it worst my nyett keep bugging me to come with him to have dinner with his mother. I know that he has a good intention there but still, it’s hard. It just so hard and I don’t know how to put my words together. And that’s how I become very moody yesterday.

OK, so I know most of you never had a chance to meet my mom.
I’ll show you a picture of her. She’s the most wonderful person in my life.
I still remember she used to prepare vitamin, kismis, botol air before I go to school. And yes I was spoiled back then. She made our baju kurung herself. We don’t even have to tempah orang jahit baju raya. My school uniform, she made it herself. She’s a great cook also. I love to eat nasi minyak, and every time I went to camp or any activities overnight at school, she’ll cook for me nasi minyak before I go. And when I sick, she’ll stick to traditional remedy which is basuh kepala dengan daun bunga raya. I never see everyone else did this anymore. She is a wonderful mom and wife. She gives all the best for her family. I always thought when I get married, and have children, I wanna be like her. Mak, I’ll miss u and pray for you every day. Al-fatihah. 

 And this song is tribute to my mother

This is the most emotional entry ever.
I don’t usually let myself speak this far.
So, that’s it for now.
Be grateful every day, senyum lebar sampai ke telinga.
With lots of Lurve

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